Date of Birth: June 04, 1964
Date of Death: February 14, 2023
Kim Allison (Hansen) Holden 58, of Surprise, AZ, passed away on February 14,2023 . She was preceded in death by her husband of 38 years, Steven Holden. Also survived by son Chase Holden. Daughter of Herbert O. Hansen Sr, Norma Jean (Felten) Hansen, also both deceased. Kim had a large surviving family. Left behind mourning our loss is sister Nancy (Hansen) Pulvino, Brother Herbert O Hansen Jr. and brother in law Rob Pulvino, Jimmy Holden and George Holden. Six nieces, Robyn Defer, Karianne Ciani, Bria Calderone, Jennifer Newman, Sarah Holden, Melissa Holden. Four nephews, Brett Hansen, Eric Holden, Preston Holden, and Chris Holden. Kim was originally from NJ and retired 24 years ago from the Bergen County Mosquitoes Commission to become a full time mother. Her passions were bidding on eBay for Lenox collectibles and dollhouse miniatures. Kim will surely be missed but God has an Angel that we’d all pray to be. She was a believer in our Lord Jesus and we look forward to the day we will be with her again.
I’m going to miss you Kim
Say hi to Steve
Love you
For the longest time, I held a grudge against you for bringing me to Arizona. I didn’t want to come out here, but I was still young and didn’t really have a say in the matter. When we first moved out to Arizona, it was me and you against the world. You were my mom and you meant everything to me, even in death you still do. Looking back at all the dumb things I did the past 8 years we were out here, I wonder how you were still able to love me. I struggled with addiction, I would steal from you and look you dead in the eyes and tell you I didn’t, but yet when the family was ready to send me to jail for what I’ve done, you wouldn’t let them because I was your baby boy. Looking back at the past two years when you were at your worst, I didn’t do enough for you. I didn’t have nor did I want a relationship with the family out here, and I feel like that took a toll on you as well. I stepped back because I felt like there wasn’t anything I could do for you. I let your sister and brother in law take control of everything, which was probably the best thing I could’ve done for you. I wonder what I could’ve done differently, and everyday I live with the agony of regret. In the last five months of your life, I only saw you a handful of times, the last time being Thanksgiving of this past year. Our last real conversation involved me telling you how much of a fuckup I was/am, and that you raised a fuckup. The very next day you were in the ER because you had a heart attack, which I blame myself for because not only did what I said impact you in the worst way, but also the amount of time that elapsed since the last time I saw you worried you, you thought I was either dead or didn’t want anything to do with you. I know now that that was wrong, and if I could turn back time and change everything that I ever did I would have in a heartbeat, but I know that that’s not how any of this works. Your pain and suffering is finally over, and the pain that I’m going to have with me for the rest of my life has just begun. I love you Mom, and I’m sorry that it took your passing to bring me back to the family. Save me a spot next to you and Dad, until we meet again.